I’m just wasting my time and my money!

I’m totally embarrassed because of my play. I don’t have any more time and money to waste. I need to write to the coach immediately.

I feel sad. I’m absolutely confused. I think there were too many different type of advice and help which I get in the last few weeks or months. I’m sure they were good, but I messed up everything and couldn’t find myself in this chaos. I was a ‘very easy to play against’ type of rock, but now? Now I’m a monkey. I’m aggressive but I don’t know what to do with it and loosing so much. I know it’s not about luck, it’s about me and my wrong play.

So this is it. I need help as soon as it possible. This is an emergency call, not a test! S.O.S I’m sinking…