There is a lot, so let see some!
1. When was my last session review? I have no idea!
2. How many hands did I review in October? Just a few…
3. Did I change something when I realized that my play went wrong? No.
Etc.
How do I want to be a better player? Good question...
If you are familiar with the Full Tilt, then I’m sure you know how their bonus system is working. I’m talking about that iron man thing. It’s not a huge amount when you are playing higher levels but it could be a lot of money if you are a micro stakes beginner. Actually I’m in the 9th month in a row. In this half year (July-September) every month is gold, which means $75 bonus after each in the next January. Why am I writing this? Because this is how I’m playing 25 days every month and 700-800 hands daily. The problem is, if I do this, I don’t have more freetime to learning, reviewing etc…
To do list for the next couple of weeks
1. review the 2 coaching video (Steve) which I have
2. review my last 20-25 sessions or so
3. try to find my leaks
If I cannot change my game I’ll go broke. I have 2 more month to crashing this level and be a solid winner on NL50. Without this I need to close the door and forget this whole poker world. I know that my whole problem sounds ridiculous and foolish for you guys, who are playing on higher levels. But it’s really not the funny here…
Oh and I take a day off from poker today. Tomorrow is coaching day. Please, cheer me on!
See you next time
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
Honestly I’m playing badly
No, I’m not just weak or something like that. I’m as bad as a poker player can be.
Forget that f*n EV, it’s about -10 buy in now in October. But who the f* cares about it? I’m playing like a robot, I mean my mind is empty. Sometimes I’m a calling station, sometimes a bet/folding guy. I’m losing session after session. There is no different. I’m the fish at the tables.
Today was a joke too. I played 16.76/12.88!!! Gee man, I was 18/14 or so before the coaching. The first couple of lessons were: be more aggressive! The main goal: TAG style. And now I’m playing 16/12. That’s LOL. Hurts me a lot but that’s LOL.
Yes, I started like a God after the 3rd coaching, then had some incredible bad luck in a row. But everybody has it sometimes. And this little unlucky streak was enough to broken my whole self-confidence, my style, my game. I think this means that I really didn’t have those, I just thought for a moment that I found them, but I never had.
I lost about 30% of my BR and my fear is that I have just a one way ticket at this time.
I started to use this Poker Table Ratings (PTR) site. Found a lot of weak players (funny when I’m saying this about others) and I’m using this when I’m looking for tables. It sounds like a real help, but I don’t feel that…
So the conclusion is as simple as short: I’m playing my worst poker ever. I said it before too I know but that was nothing compared to this.
Let me show you something
And there was no unlucky hands today. This is the pure bad play. And've I got what I deserved for it.
I think here are a little self-pity, anger and some emptiness. Nice mix…
Forget that f*n EV, it’s about -10 buy in now in October. But who the f* cares about it? I’m playing like a robot, I mean my mind is empty. Sometimes I’m a calling station, sometimes a bet/folding guy. I’m losing session after session. There is no different. I’m the fish at the tables.
Today was a joke too. I played 16.76/12.88!!! Gee man, I was 18/14 or so before the coaching. The first couple of lessons were: be more aggressive! The main goal: TAG style. And now I’m playing 16/12. That’s LOL. Hurts me a lot but that’s LOL.
Yes, I started like a God after the 3rd coaching, then had some incredible bad luck in a row. But everybody has it sometimes. And this little unlucky streak was enough to broken my whole self-confidence, my style, my game. I think this means that I really didn’t have those, I just thought for a moment that I found them, but I never had.
I lost about 30% of my BR and my fear is that I have just a one way ticket at this time.
I started to use this Poker Table Ratings (PTR) site. Found a lot of weak players (funny when I’m saying this about others) and I’m using this when I’m looking for tables. It sounds like a real help, but I don’t feel that…
So the conclusion is as simple as short: I’m playing my worst poker ever. I said it before too I know but that was nothing compared to this.
Let me show you something
And there was no unlucky hands today. This is the pure bad play. And've I got what I deserved for it.
I think here are a little self-pity, anger and some emptiness. Nice mix…
Monday, October 19, 2009
Still breakeven with some faults and unlucky hands
Originally I wanted to go up to NL50 in this month. When I started to play after the 3rd coaching session everything went well and I thought I’m ready for the next step. Honestly I’m still feeling that, but my BR is so thin and I need to pay for the HEM and for the next coaching session, so this step recedes away.
After a few thousand hands I was up and I had huge self-confidence, I felt that the world is mine. Then I made some mistakes plus I’ve paid off same luckfest guys too - you can see that in my EV graph.
My river play - which was the main question in the 3rd coaching session - is still not as good as it needs to be, so I need to find the way to fix it and build it up. Sounds very easy, but trust me, it’s not that.
Oh, about the next level and the next step! I don’t want to go in the deep sea without any help and any background. When I’ll move up I’ll have a huge DB on that level, and I think the first few sessions I’ll open up just one or two NL50 tables and 3 or 4 NL25 just for the safety’s sake…
We’ll see. I need to talk about it with my coach before.
After a few thousand hands I was up and I had huge self-confidence, I felt that the world is mine. Then I made some mistakes plus I’ve paid off same luckfest guys too - you can see that in my EV graph.
My river play - which was the main question in the 3rd coaching session - is still not as good as it needs to be, so I need to find the way to fix it and build it up. Sounds very easy, but trust me, it’s not that.
Oh, about the next level and the next step! I don’t want to go in the deep sea without any help and any background. When I’ll move up I’ll have a huge DB on that level, and I think the first few sessions I’ll open up just one or two NL50 tables and 3 or 4 NL25 just for the safety’s sake…
We’ll see. I need to talk about it with my coach before.
Interesting changes in my style
As I wrote it in July the pokertableratings is tracking low limits too! They found me on Full Tilt at this April, so they don’t have my whole DB but they’ve got enough hands to see what kind of player I am. I know sometimes they miss the essential hands of our sessions (I remember, my best day was 4 bi+, but PTR show -$3 in the end) but on a long term their stats are showing you the truth.
Before we started this whole coaching with Steve I checked what PTR wrote about me.
They have this Grader which is very interesting. Now I show you what it said about me before the coaching and how it looks like now, after 3 sessions with Steve. Don’t forget that the new report card includes my old hands to. This means about 48k old and 54k new hands?
Here is my old report card
And my new one
There are still a lot to do, especially with my river and showdown play, but this one is a very good feedback for me too…
So when Steve is telling me that I’m on the right direction and I already made some huge steps he is not just talking but he is right.
Before we started this whole coaching with Steve I checked what PTR wrote about me.
They have this Grader which is very interesting. Now I show you what it said about me before the coaching and how it looks like now, after 3 sessions with Steve. Don’t forget that the new report card includes my old hands to. This means about 48k old and 54k new hands?
Here is my old report card
And my new one
There are still a lot to do, especially with my river and showdown play, but this one is a very good feedback for me too…
So when Steve is telling me that I’m on the right direction and I already made some huge steps he is not just talking but he is right.
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